SECRET SANTA!

So I am just hours away from picking my secret Santa. I already made the cards and we're gonna go to Bunface's to pick our secret Santa's.

Whoever my secret Santa is, you're in for a real treat. You know how David does these things, he goes ALL OUT! Even if I don't know what to get you, you're gonna get the best random thing ever. It's gonna be a gift you're gonna love and keep loving for years to come. You're gonna use this shit everyday. It might not even expensive. It could just be some invention that you didn't even know existed. It might be a SHAMWOW! I might even make you something. But no matter what it is, it's gonna blow the rest of the gifts away!

I love Christmas!

Re-Modeling

I just spent the last four hours re-doing my entire page and changing the look.
Let me know what you think. Good night!

The downhill day

Today (yesterday, 11/28/08) was a day that started great but got perpetually worse as the hours passed by. It was an ordeal and it feels like last week already.
I woke up to find out that my parents bought a new TV from Black Friday shopping. I won't really be using it, but it's still good news!
Lenry Huu stopped by to wish me a Happy Late-Thanksgiving and we had a great lunch. Then I went to work.
Things started off really well. I was breezing through work without any trouble until my first break. I got so hungry and I couldn't get any food so I had to eat sun chips. Then when I got back to work, my breath stank. But I was getting to know a few more of my co-workers so I didn't mind much.
My next break, I was even more hungry and now there was nothing to eat but chocolate! I'm not a big fan of chocolate, but food is food.
Conversation got dull and suddenly I became that guy who was talking about random things just to cease the silence. And I hate being that guy. So I stopped talking.
After that, work was just lame and dull and I was annoyed by the tedious labor.
When I got off work, I missed the shuttle so I walk halfway to the lot. The I saw the bus so I turn around and walk back. The bus ride only took like 10 minutes but I was so irritated at that point it felt like 30.
I drive to Kevin's double back to pick up a friend and I try to get some cognac from my house. My brother gives me shit and I had to manhandle him out of the way just so I could walk out the house.
I can't drink 'cause I had an empty belly and I had to drive home. The house is packed full of loud drunk people and being surrounded by drunks when you're sober is super lame. All the cool people left and there were some unsavory people who I did not care to see or hear but saw and heard all the same.
During the drive home, loneliness sets in and when I get back to finally get some food, there's only one slice of pumpkin pie left (which is my favorite).

Ugh I'm too fucking tired to even complain anymore.

Just the most annoying day ever. I feel like I just spent the day with myself. I'm going to bed (hopefully).

P.S. Miserable at a party-- how much more pathetic can you get?

Insomnia

I've been having trouble sleeping this past week. Well, more trouble than usual I mean. I generally go to bed around 2 AM and I fall asleep by 2:30-3 due to physical fatigue. But Wednesday morning, I didn't get to bed until 4 AM and Thursday morning I couldn't sleep until 4:30. Today, Friday morning, I am still awake. My eyes hurt from staying open but I just lie there in bed thinking.
Right now, I'm watching TV but there's nothing on except infomercials. TimeLife music is showcasing a collection of soul music. This music reminds me of Macy's. One of the things I miss most about working there was the soundtrack. Some of the music I like, I actually discovered from Macy's. Every other song on this music collection was played at Macy's. After almost two years of working there, the sounds really stick to your head. Soul music is nice.
I think the cause of insomnia is an uneventful day. I think my mind craves more excitement and it refuses to let me rest even though my body is exhausted. There really is no cure for insomnia. I suppose the best thing you could possibly do to fall asleep is take some aspirin and lie motionless in the dark.
Insomnia is a real condition and I really hope I don't have it. I wonder what people who really have it do all night long. Are really people like Tyler Durden out there who spend their nights researching how to build bombs and dismantle infrastructure? There's really nothing to do at night. TV sucks, the internet gets old, you can't read if your eyes are sore, everything is closed, it's dark and dangerous... I mean you can't really do much of anything. It would seem like being awake at night would make it easy to go to bed. It's so boring. It might take you a few hours, but you can just jog in place and then your body should be good to go.
But I don't know. I've been fortunate enough to not have to deal with real insomnia. They say that it can cause more serious mental conditions and you go really CRAZY! *YON* I guess I'm pretty much ready to go to bed. Wish me luck!

If I don't end up sleeping, I'll be back with more to say...

Thanksgiving 2008

So this year's Thanksgiving was the same as any others. My parents spent it with friends of theirs and I was left with my brother eating last night's dinner.

The cider I drank tasted more flat and dull than usual. I finally learned to how to cook eggs sunny side up! It turns out the trick is to put a lid on it. DUH! I think the combination of poorly cooked eggs and warm apple cider is making my stomach hurt.

During Thanksgiving, we're supposed to write down what we are thankful for. At least that's what all my teachers have been making me do everything Thanksgiving since first grade. So without further ado, this is my list of what I am thankful for this year:

1. My health- A lot of people like to tell me that I'm not healthy. Maybe in your opinion, I am not healthy; the way I see it, I'm alive and I eat everyday. I don't have a fever and my body doesn't ache. That's healthy enough for me and its better off than a lot of people. If you're healthier than me, well good for you but that doesn't make me any less healthy.
2. My friends- I've said it before and I'll say it again: 2008 has been a difficult year for me. According to my superstitious parents, every 6 years on the Chinese calendar will be a year of bad luck. So every year of the rat and year of the horse, I have to be extra careful (that goes for the rest of you horse's!) Well if you spoken to me anytime in the past 11 months, I don't need to tell you about all the problems I've been having this year. The only reason I am still standing and still laughing is my friends. I'm almost grateful for all the hardships I've faced because it has only brought me closer to my friends. I'm usually the guy that people come to for help. I am the one who cheers people up and offers advice. It feels great to know that I finally have people who would do the same for me.
   Henry- I've known your ass since kindergarten. For 14 years, you've never failed to put a smile on my face. This year, I fell down and I want to thank you for picking me up. We've always been able to share good times; now that we've faced the bad time together, I know our friendship can overcome anything. I love you man and I hope we don't stop laughing for another 14 years... and then another 14.
   William- I get by day-to-day thanks to this guy. William, you are a bright and shining beacon of gayness that spreads joy to all. Sometimes when I have a bad day, I'm a big grouchy downer but you always try your best to turn me around each day. Even though you suck at scoutzknivez, you try your best and you never quit! That attitude encourages me to keep going and I'm blessed to have your determination rub off on me.
   Tiffani- You're the only person balancing my feminine side. When serious shit goes down, you're the first person I call and you're always there for me. Your ability to stay calm and cool gives me strength and it reminds me to think with an even temper. It's also good to know that someone actually cares about and listens to what I have to say. It's fun when we agree on things and even more fun when we disagree. You are a diamond in the rough and in time, you will grow to be the jewel in everyone's life. You like that fortune cookie line?
   And now the three B's in alphabetical order:
   Bao- Even though we're "mad" at each other right now, I'm still thankful for you in my life. We don't always see eye-to-eye but its the differences that allow us to complement each other. I mean, if we agreed on everything, it'd be boring. I know you're going through a tough time right now, but just know that I'm just trying give you advice. My advice isn't always the best, but it's all I got. You're King Bao! You'll figure it out!
   Bruce- Hey boo boo! I love you caca! Brucie-bear, I know I give you a hard time, but it's only because I know you're tough enough to take it. I think the world of you and even though I don't show it, you're kind of like a role model for me. You always have a smile on your face and your positivity is contagious. You given me so much; don't ever hesitate to ask because I would love to return the favor. I respect you and I envy your powerful personality.
   Bunnath- You're the only asshole meaner than me. You make me look good. HAHAHA I love you, you stinker! Seriously though, you are like the one guy who I'm not afraid to be myself around. I'm glad that I have someone like you who makes the music sound louder and the lights shine brighter.
   Es- Dude you are so chill... Too chill in fact. I can't even think of anything to write. I am thankful for your placidity. Everytime I talk to you, you so serene and peaceful. It's good to know that when my life is crazy and on it side, talking to you can be like a 2-week vacation which relaxes all the tension.
   I'd really hate myself for forgetting anyone but this sections getting pretty long and I got a lot more to say and I wanna make it before midnight. So if I forget you, I am sincerely apologetic but know that I am thankful of our friendship!
3. My things- Now I'm not a materialistic guy, but it would be negligent to overlook all the great possessions I have. In our capitalist society, the success we've achieved is not necessarily expressed in our accomplishments or moral characters. These days, people are more measured by what we own. I've worked hard to earn everything I have and even though I don't like being judged by my property, I'm still proud of them.
4. New music discovered- It's pretty evident that I have an esoteric taste in music. I like listening to popular music, but they always leave me wanting more. This year, I've been able to define my musical taste by experimenting with maybe different sounds and genres. I'm glad that I found artists who I really appreciate; music that never gets old. Yeah, it's sad music, but it makes me think and it makes me feel "full." A Fine Frenzy, Ingrid Michaelson, Adele, The Bird & the Bee, Mason Jennings, Travis, James Morrison, Secondhand Serenade (?), Pink Martini, Owl City, etc. Music like this is now my style of music.
5. Being Single- HAHAHA not really. I can't really say that I enjoy being single but I do believe that it is good for me. Being alone has allowed me to grow into a better person and it unleashed the real me. It was a much-needed wake up call which really put my life into perspective. I think that part of living in this world is knowing where you fit in it.

So there you have it, my list of what I'm thankful for. It's not much but I would gladly put my list up against yours and I bet I'd still be happy with it.

I hope you all had a great Thanksgiving and I wish you can appreciate what you DO have instead of focusing on what you DON'T. It's the only way you can live with an honest smile!

Now that Thanksgiving is over, it's all Christmas now 8)